Friday Five- 015

Not sure how everyone else is feeling this week, as I’ve felt a bit disconnected and withdrawn. I’ve been running so hard recently that this crash of a week was bound to happen. I’m taking Friday off this week– my first WHOLE DAY OFF in quite a while. But sometimes, you gotta… Listen to your hearts, ya’ll.

  1. I’ve been on #TeamLiveAlone for 6 years now. I’ve learned these lessons and so many more.
  2. Busy busy busy? You may be avoiding something. What could it be…?  Take a minute, read this article, then think about it– what are you avoiding?
  3. Oh Dear Drea is the blog I’ve followed the longest, since back before I really understood what a blog was. I’ve enjoyed watching her life change and her kid grow, even if they really are all strangers. In this post, she had some good musings about travel and not having to love every spot you visit.
  4.  Do you have trouble saving money? What are your techniques for improvement? Personally, I have an app that functions as a basic ledger (checkbook) and I keep things in “accounts.” While this money is all actually in the same account, I can move things around on my app (and in my head) and into specific things I’m saving for or emergency funds. It’s like I’m hiding money from myself, which honestly– I sometimes need.
  5. If you live in Indy, do yourself a favor and swing by Shapiro’s Deli this weekend. Every time I go, it’s like rediscovering a hidden gem. It’s like I forget how great it is every time– until I walk in again. Dear Shapiro’s, I promise to stop forgetting how wonderful you are.

Ironic that I talked about how busy I’ve been, but then posted a link on how busy isn’t all that great? To be honest, I’ve never been a busy bee. I love taking it easy and having days off. It’s just this transition time, which I’ve talked about before. I’m working hard with a foot in both worlds right now, trying to make my dreams work by moving forward (while finishing up the old stuff). Two more weeks and I’m done at the office. I’m ready, I think. But still very freaked out.

Happy Friday.

Friday Five- 014

What a hot, sticky week! This week, I celebrated Independence Day inside in air conditioning, picked at a leftover stars and stripes cake, and ate Hotbox Pizza to my heart’s content. What I’m saying is– I’ve been living my best life.

  1. I have definitely used this recipe for pesto because I don’t have a food processor and I wanted to know if it was possible (answer: duh, we’ve been doing this for a long time). Also, just like my mama, I made lots of substitutions. Lesson learned: do you. Chop like crazy. Cooking has been around for longer than kitchen gadgets and “must haves.”
  2. Mac and Cheese is my go-to comfort food. And now there’s a scientific reason why!
  3. This is probably my favorite thing I’ve read all week– a listing of first dates. Don’t read if you’re squeemish about dating and/or human sexuality. I’d love to make a list like this someday, but I think my first date stories are just boring. Not terrible, just really, really dull.
  4. What other people don’t get about living in America
  5. American Life, experienced in a variety of ways. I love hearing stories, it makes me feel so connected to others. I’m thankful for those brave enough to share their “outside the norm” life.

Here’s to rain and a slightly less-hot weekend! I have plants to plant, sunshine to enjoy, and a deep desire to not melt in the heat!

What I read in June

Young Jane Young, Gabrielle Zevin

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Rating: 4.5/5 stars

What I liked/didn’t like: I loved the timeliness of the story, the story from the women’s points of view, and I really liked a lot of the characters. There wasn’t much I didn’t like about it, except that I wanted it to continue.

Exit West, Mohsin Hamid

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Rating: 5/5 stars

What I liked/didn’t like: I loved the melancholy of the book, as well as Hamid’s prose– there were just some really beautifully written sentences. I won’t say a lot about this one, it’s one you’ll have to read for yourself. But I’ve recommended it just about everywhere I could, if that says something. May not be a light, summer read, but it’s a quick read.

 

Difficult Women, Roxane Gay

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Rating: 3.5/5 stars

What I liked/didn’t like: Difficult Women is a collection of short stories, all from a different story or perspective. I laughed, I cried, I emailed Roxane Gay to tell her how much her writing impacted me. There were some weird ones that I sort of breezed through, there were some that I sat the book down and ugly cried for a while. Relatable women, unrelatable women, I learned something, I felt something.

Despite the heat and the call for summer reads— I read some heavy ones this past month. I think they hit where I was emotionally for me as well as providing a release (there was a lot of crying…) I’m doing better, and I’d like to think it was in part due to some of these reads. After all, everything you read becomes a part of you…

(ps– Honorable mentions go to Why Not Me? by Mindy Kaling and In Cold Blood, by Truman Capote, both of which went back to the library unfinished. I may pick them back up at another point, but in June, they just didn’t work for me)

Friday Five– 013

This week was FULL– of FUN! From a jazzy time at the Jazz Kitchen, to a much-needed massage and wine session with my MT, and tonight– the Star Spangled Symphony. Other than those very fun things, I’ve had some proper down time, I’ve started planting things in my yard, and I just generally feel a bit more settled. Whew.

  1. If you see my comment on this page, it’s true. I teared up. I needed to hear these “so what“s and say a few of my own.
  2. Impostor Syndrome? A few of these books have now made it on my “to read” list, which just keeps getting longer. Guess I’m going to have to live forever to get all these books read!
  3. I’ll be honest, I’m a little bit cheap. As in– I only buy Anthropologie when there’s a sale on sale. Which– there is! Enjoy.
  4. This article inspired me to reach out to the author of a book I’m currently reading. It was just a few lines to say how much I was enjoying her work. Who would you reach out to, just to say you love their stuff? It might go a long way.
  5. Routines. Love them? Hate them? With my anxiety, I tend to thrive on routine. But I also am easily bored. So I need structure but freedom within the structure…? I don’t know, I’m a complicated person. (Sidenote: The first question of 6 is one I think of frequently– What kind of person do I want to be? It’s helped me make a lot of decisions in the past few years)

This weekend, I’m finishing up foster training a month earlier than I thought I would, going to a church brunch (helloooo, mingling anxiety), and anticipating the delivery of my new shed! It should be an equal balance of exciting and relaxing– hope yours turns out the same!

Self Care: CBD

CBD oil was recently legalized in my state, to much acclaim. It’s flown off health food shelves; even my mom has chews! I’m not here to give you any new information about CBD, just talk briefly about my experience.

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The office where I practice massage therapy has begun selling CBD oils from Farmacology. We sell the 1000 mg tincture and do add-ons to massages with the salve. I haven’t used the salve myself (yet), but I do use the CBD oil, nearly every night.

What does CBD oil do for me? I get real, restful sleep! For years, I have slept a lot without ever feeling rested. I haven’t gotten it checked out so I’m not actually sure why, but I’ve slept so much. And with CBD, I can sleep less because I wake up truly rested. It’s been huge for me– CBD helps my mind get quiet, I relax (I tell people: CBD is all of the chill with none of the high of weed), and I dream (REM deep sleep). All of this combined helps me feel great in the morning and ready to tackle the day.

I’ve heard a lot of other good about CBD in the past few years and I’m glad for a healthy alternative. You can read up elsewhere about the benefits and what to look for in product. All I can tell you is my experience and that I’m a believer!

 

Tired

I am in a strange place in life. I’ve found myself here frequently, but this one is a little longer. It’s the in-between-time. I am transitioning, making changes in my life, one foot in each space (actually, it’s feeling a bit more like Twister right now, left foot on blue, right hand on yellow). I am twisting and contorting my body and my life to make space for new things, while still doing the old things.

As a result, I am tired. So, heavy, bone-tired. Part of my new, massage therapy, is making me physically tired (and sore). Part of my old, the office, is making me mentally tired. More of my new, foster training, is making me emotionally tired. And throw this all in the blender with a pinch (just a pinch?!) of the current state of America and the World, and it blends up nicely into Exhaustion Smoothie. Which I do not recommend.

I’m so thankful for the opportunities I’ve had, and for the change and growth, I’m so excited. But I’m living my old life and my new life and that’s a lot of life to live all at once. I am looking forward to the time I’m fully into the new, but it’s scary, leaving the old.

It’s, like I said, a strange place.

I’m not a fan of bragging about how busy I am. I honestly hate the word “hustle” and all its connotations. But it’s what I’m doing, mostly– that “survivor shuffle” to get from point A to point B, slow and steady, inching forward.

But this weekend I got to visit my parents, hold my niece, and stare at some trees for a while. It was a brief respite, book-ended by a few hours on the highway. It was much needed as I go from one jam-packed week to another.

If you’re feeling similarly, for whatever reasons, go look at a tree. Or hold a baby. I’d recommend both. Together, if possible.

Friday Five– 012

After last week’s craziness, this week’s slower pace was a welcome respite. We got some rain, the temps fell (o, happy day!), and we celebrated the beginning of summer and World Yoga Day.

  1.  New life goal: buy this house, decorate appropriately, run a Hogwarts-themed B&B.
  2. All of a sudden, articles about parenting— which once felt “not for me”– are very intriguing. And scary. How do people do this parenting thing? How do you raise a human person? And people– put that phone down occasionally!
  3. More on children– but these are being separated from their parents. Yes, you know what I’m talking about. But this is a good explanation of what’s been going on, and how to help.
  4. This is a bit of good news, locally. Our governor just took $25 million from our state’s surplus to improve DCS. Hallelujah.
  5. Lastly, here’s a piece about Johnny Depp. Remember middle school, when he was Captain Jack Sparrow and handsome and charming? Apparently that lifestyle doesn’t hold and this just gets a bit sad, really.

Oof. This list tipped heavy. It’s been a heavy week, again. I’ve got the weekend with family up north, and I’m excited to get away, out of my headspace, and breathe a little. It’s a bit of sticking my head in the sand, but you know? Sometimes you have to, knowing others will carry on, and when you’re strong enough again, you rejoin the fight and let someone else take a breather.

Breathe. Love. Fight.